Last week I was off from work and enjoyed the time to relax and catch up on some reading and other things. In the back of my mind, however, was this dread about a certain situation I was going to have to deal with when I got back to my job.
Monday's are hard for me anyway, getting back into the grind and all. But when I got to work the situation that simmered in the back of my mind during my vacation was taken care of in another and quite unexpected manner.
"There is a God," I told a couple of friends, who laughed and just shook their heads.
It reminded of me of the old joke about an atheist's most troubling dilemma: When he feels truly thankful but has no one to thank.
I hadn't prayed for this cup to pass from me, so I can't honestly say that it was an answer to prayer. Still, it sure was an emotional picker upper.
These feelings of things somehow falling into place seemingly against the odds, sometimes almost against all odds, can give people a feeling of there being some cosmic ordering for their lives. Like many folks I can look back through the years of my life and see things that seemed to fall into place in a certain way that is uncanny. It may all be a misunderstanding. But if it is an illusion, it certainly is a powerful one.
I believe this is one of the things that makes religion real for so many. That combined with a very understandable desire to find some force that will be "with you" as you travel along the way. It very often becomes personified into a certain image of God. For others it remains a murkier concept, yet still very real.
There does appear to be an ordering in life. Certainly one of the most compelling reasons for accepting some idea of the divine is the troubling question of why there is this vast, organized assemblage we call the universe.
That it sprang into existence out of nothing has never been a compelling idea, and the most powerful champions of that view had to be trained into accepting it. In no way do I think such an idea is instinctive.
These ideas have troubled my mind for a very long time and likely always will.